Coming home from college was one of the best and most natural feelings. In the back of my mind, I sometimes wish that I had stayed on the mainland or gone off to a foreign country in hopes of finding opportunities that would aid me in reaching my full potential as a designer, or whatever I am meant to be. (I'm actually glad I didn't--at least for the summer-- because I got to spend time with my Popo-grandma- before she passed.) Anyways, I've recently been hired to work at a retail store, and although I am so glad to work for the company, I have become extremely frustrated. It's just hard to be in a place that doesn't seem to motivate me like I was in high school, where I grew to strive for challenge. It's hard to be surrounded by people who don't share the same drive and level of knowledge as me. I am not trying to put people down, because I know that I was lucky to have the education I got and that that doesn't make me a better person or anything. I guess what intensifies this frustration is seeing everyone else that I know get jobs or internships that are huge breaks in their desired careers. I just feel like everyone is moving forward and I am moving backwards. I feel like I am wasting all of my parents' money and sacrifices. I am scared of getting stuck or too comfortable. I feel like I could/should do so much more.
But I am trying to believe that not everyone's pace/path to success is not the same. This job is not a waste of my time--I never thought that-- because it will actually help me a lot with getting out of my shell, which is something I really need to achieve in order to succeed. I love the company not only because of what they sell (haha), but also in everything they stand for. Being a locally owned company, it might actually help me a lot. I ultimately want to have my own local company, so seeing how they work in order to keep up with the other bigger companies is really intriguing and helpful. They are so ethical and really treat their customers with the utmost respect. This company really shows me that going out into the real world while keeping my morals and being successful is possible. So maybe I just need to look for/at things that I can get from this experience that will help me in the future. I just need to stay positive and moving forward. I have to believe that everything happens for a reason and will eventually fall into place.
Remember: Always remember the bigger picture.
*Disclaimer: I am in no way implying that I think I am better or superior to anyone. I know and am thankful that I was blessed with parents who did everything they could to make sure I got an excellent education.
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